Throughout my exams, I just couldn't wait for them to finish so that I could have time to "do nothing". Sure enough, that day came, and the day after exams I did nothing. During that day I realised that there was no way I would be able to do the same for two and a half months.
Although I didn't clock it at the time, I have never been able to perform unproductive tasks for long periods of time. I feel guilty. Unbelievably guilty that I'm not using that time wisely at all. I have to find something productive to do, even if it means I suffer for the sake of it. A great example has just occurred this past week. Having been on back-to-back holidays, finished last Friday, I was down to play cricket all day Saturday. I desperately wanted a rest but decided that I would "rest while asleep" and went to play. I didn't go out with friends on Saturday, claiming that I "needed rest" whilst I planned a bike ride the next day with a friend. All of this has left me a little tired today, but I've been to play tennis because there's no way I could sit on the sofa for the day.
It takes a lot of mental strength to be able to "do nothing".
Oli
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